Annabella's
Oblivion
Hard World Tour
#1
By
V.F. Mason
Released February
3, 20Mus16
Cover Designer: Mayhem
Cover Creations
Sometimes love is
our only salvation...
Annabella
My brother and I
shared the unbreakable bond that held us through thick and thin.
Nick helped me to
achieve my dreams and meet my best friends.
Our shared talents
with girls allowed us to create one of the best rock bands of our generation.
We had it all.
Fame, money,
freedom.
The future held
nothing but endless possibilities for us, and I couldn't be happier.
Until the person I
loved most, my brother, was gone.
And nothing was
ever the same.
The Oblivion
consumed me, and I never wanted to come back.
But then Nate
Jackson decided to save me, and I was powerless to stop him from bulldozing
into my life and make me live again.
Annabella’s
Oblivion
Copyright2016 V.F.
Mason
All rights reserved
Prologue
Annabella
When you lose
someone you love, you want to scream as you fall to your knees, begging for
anything to release the pain. People say, once you let it all out, you’re
finally able to accept the fact that the person you love is gone and you can
proceed with the funeral and the grieving.
They say time heals
everything and makes us remember those we lost only with smiles and good
memories, and all the bad things fade away.
Well, you know
what? It’s all fucking bullshit. Time doesn’t heal shit; it just makes you deal
with the painful reality that they’re never coming back.
There is no scream.
The minute you get the news, all you hear is a deep buzzing sound in your ears
and everything around you is just quiet, as if you were in a vacuum.
Funerals and seeing
the body? Makes you loathe it even more and get angry at all those people who
think they know better, who give you that pitiful stare and tell you someday
everything will be all right. They promise to be there for you and always offer
their support.
That was a fucking
lie, too. No one’s here with me right now. I lie in bed all alone and the pain
doesn’t go away. That, I guess, is the whole point to being in rehab.
“Bella, you are
fucking using, and you want me to let you go on with it?”
“Take her to a
center. She is a fucking druggie.”
“Have you thought
for a second how Nick would react to this?”
I hear all those
voices in my head every time I try to relax. There is no getting away from
them, or from those people who think they understand.
They think they’re
allowed to judge.
Well, they fucking
aren’t. They don’t know what it’s like to be me and deal with the pain when you
have to smile for the press or perform on stage.
No, they fucking
don’t, and I hate them for judging me.
Drugs, they were my
friends. For just a moment, they allowed me to see him, to imagine and talk to
him. I was able to laugh and experience a slight joy because he was here every
time I took another dose. They took it away from me and thought I would deal
with the grief.
How can I ever deal
with it?
The person I loved
most, the one who always believed in me, who was there for me when I wanted to
explore my talent and go big, who saved me from the blows of our father, he’s
gone.
He is never coming
back. He can never hug me and tell me it’s going to be okay, because nothing
can be okay for me anymore. I want him here with me, but at the same time, I
know he would have been disappointed in me. He would never take drugs or
approve of me doing something so bad either. He hated them because they
destroyed our parents, and he helped kids like us make a different choice.
There is one vivid
memory of him and me, when I was five and he was ten, and we walked around the
park with just our sweaters and coats as protection against the biting wind,
even though our coats were old and didn’t do much to keep us warm. I had wanted
to see the park and he showed me. My teeth chattered from the cold, so he
removed his coat with the intention of placing it on me.
“No, Nick! It’s
freezing!” He held me close as I tried to get away, because as cold as I was, I
didn’t want him to suffer. And if he became sick, there was no medicine to heal
him. Our parents spent what little money they had on the alcohol and didn’t
give a thought to their kids. Nick ignored my arguments and placed his jacket
on me.
“It’s okay. I feel
better knowing you are protected.” It made me cry, but he just smiled and
hugged me. He was my hero. There wasn’t a time in my life when he didn’t put me
and my needs first. He’d attended every one of my concerts and even arranged my
music deal.
He will always be
my hero. But he’s gone.
He is gone forever.
How can I live in a
world where he no longer exists?
How is it possible
to breathe in a world where my big brother, the only family I’ve ever had,
doesn’t exist?
He is gone, and
sometimes, I wish like hell I could have gone with him, that it would have been
me who’d died in that car accident all those months ago. It should have been me
who laid on the table, my body cold and lifeless.
They say atonement
comes one way or another, or the guilt eventually vanishes.
That’s fucking
bullshit, too. I’m a coward; I don’t want to live with the guilt. I want to
live in my small fantasy-reality, where he’s alive.
I know I’m probably
as good as done with the band. There is no way the girls and Jeremy will let me
stay after all this; plus, how can they ever trust me?
They shouldn’t,
because as much as I love what I do—what we do—if I had the choice again
between them and that life, and drugs and my brother, I would choose Nick in a
heartbeat.
My name is
Annabella Katherine Hastings. I’m the lead singer of one of the most famous
girl rock bands in the world, a fan favorite of many—supposedly with the voice
of an angel—and I’ve recently become a druggie.
Welcome to my world.
Jane's
Surrender
Hard World Tour
#2
By V.F. Mason
Out February 3,
2016
Cover Designer: Mayhem
Cover Creations
Sometimes love is
our greatest fear...
Jane
I never really
believed that love could heal until my parents adopted me. They showered me
with love and attention, and through them I met my three best friends.
Our mutual talents
allowed us to create a band that became one of the most popular rock bands in
our generations.
We had everything,
yet my heart longed for one thing.
Love.
I dreamed about the
Knight in shining armor who would come and sweep me off my feet.
One day, I finally
met him.
Only to be crushed
when he fell in love with my best friend.
I gave up on love,
deciding that happily ever after wasn't for everyone.
Until Drake came
into my life and made my head spin.
Drake
I always knew that I’d recognize the girl who is supposed to be mine from the
first moment of meeting her.
Jane came into my
life spontaneously, and we spend one amazing night filled with passion,
laughter, and fun.
On the next day,
she was gone.
My girl wanted
nothing to do with me.
However, I was
there to show her that no matter what a man never gives up on the woman he
wants and some things are worth fighting for.
Jane’s Surrender
Copyright2016 V.F. Mason
All rights reserved
Chapter 1
The night that changed everything
Las Vegas, Nevada
March, 2013
Jane, 21 years old
“Come on, Jane. Live a little!” Ariel shouted in
my ear and gave me yet another shot of tequila, and I just rolled my eyes.
The girl was crazy, but she probably didn't give
a shit. That made me smile, especially when I thought about all the things she
did in life. I shook my head and moved the shot to the side. I didn’t feeling
like drinking, and maybe I just wasn’t in the mood.
We were in a crowded Las Vegas nightclub, where
the music was so loud you had to shout to be heard, and the booze was flowing.
This club was one of the most exclusive places in the city. We paid a lot of
money to get into the VIP lounge, and even I had to admit the design was
fabulous.
The lounge’s golds and reds were mesmerizing as
they glittered vividly from the colorful club light. A big chandelier with
crystals sparkled, emphasizing its beauty. On the huge dance floor with fog and
lights, people danced and brushed against each other, drunk and out of control.
The DJ above, wearing headphones, his eyes closed, moved his arms to the beat
of the song. He appeared to be unaware he was in the crowded room. The bar was
filled with eager, slightly tipsy people who wore designer clothes. Comfortable
couches were scattered around the space.
The friendly staff consisted of long-legged sexy
waitresses in short black uniforms, black stockings, and high heels. The
bartenders were seriously hot guys with cocky smiles and flirty winks. They
wore leather pants and tight shirts, which gave the women customers a good look
at their amazing chests, and probably contributed to very good tips from the
horny ladies.
The club had some of the best dancers in the
world. A few cages hovering above the floor were filled with graceful, hot
women who alluringly danced to the songs and did wonders with the ropes. I
found it hard not to be jealous of their flexibility.
The club, Resisting Me, opened a few months
back, and quickly became a hit. No one knew much about the owners, but a rumor
hinted at twin brothers who liked to get their kinks behind closed doors.
We’d been dying to go for ages, so I had no clue
why I felt out of sorts.
Sam, Bella, and Megan danced wildly. Their arms
waved above their heads while they shook their asses to the music. Several guys
moved in closer, but my friends didn't pay any attention to them.
They were too into girls’ night to mess with the
guys, and besides, they promised Nick to behave. Nick was Bella’s brother, or
rather the brother of the whole band, and long-time boyfriend of Megan. He was
crazy about his girl, and it took us some time and bribes to convince him to
let her go unwind a little with us. I was glad she was enjoying herself.
However, that meant no sex for the girls.
Well, at least not in the club. I knew the girls
would find a way to sneak some guys into the hotel rooms. None of them wanted
anything serious, but they loved to unwind sometimes, and who could blame them?
I would have done it too, if only I could.
Ariel sighed in frustration, pinned her hair in
a knot on top of her head, and moved closer. She took a sip of her drink and
then pointed a finger at me.
“You aren’t having fun at all. This is our night
out, and for the first time since we became famous, we don’t have to hide. It
took us ages to convince everyone to let us go out, and here you are making me
mad.” Her finger jabbed into my arm.
Vicious creature.
Nonetheless, her words were filled with truth.
We became famous three years ago. The minute the
world heard our group, Hard World, we became an overnight sensation. Millions
of likes on YouTube, platinum albums, tours, multi-million dollar contracts,
everything a successful rock band wanted, which also included wild wrap
parties, exclusive hotels, and vacations. We enjoyed luxury life at its best.
That, however, had two sides, because it meant
we had to be extremely careful what we did and where we did it. We couldn't
exactly go to regular places and have fun all the time. Especially because
Jeremy, our manager, had a hissy fit about it. He hated all those parties.
By the way, he was usually clenching his fists,
drinking himself into oblivion, and giving the stink eye to all of Sam’s bed
partners; you didn't have to be a genius to figure out why.
“How am I making you mad?” I asked. Her
beautiful emerald eyes held disbelief. She just shook her head and threw back
another shot.
Ariel was a thing of beauty, an hourglass body
with curves that made men turn their heads, long, red curly hair, which shined
like fire on a bright sunny day, and those eyes of hers. No wonder men all over
the world went crazy for our little mermaid.
“Because you’re grumpy and refuse to drink or
dance,” she pouted.
“I’m not. I’m just a bit tired; that’s all.” It
was a flat out lie, and she probably knew it, but after a long hard stare, she
let it go. It was for the best too. I wasn't about to share everything, because
there was no point in doing it. Although the four of us were the closest
friends possible, we sort of had two camps inside the group. Sam and Bella
shared a special bond, while Ariel and I shared another. That’s why we were
always attuned to each other’s mood swings and everything else.
“Fine. Are you gonna go then?”
“Yep. I need some good sleep.” I leaned closer
and kissed her on her soft cheek. “I’ll buy your favorite cookies.”
“Carbs for more curves? No, thanks,” she
snorted, gulping one more shot and flashing me a picture of her in workout
clothes on her Instagram page. “After all, I have a fitness blog going on for
curvy women. I can’t eat them.”
“Chocolate chip cookies, babe.”
She narrowed her eyes, raised her chin slightly,
and looked at me suspiciously. “How many?”
Ah, I knew it would be easy to bribe her. I
moved closer to her, and whispered in her ear, “Five.”
She glanced around, nodded, and we shook hands.
“It’s a deal. But keep it quiet. The walls have
ears.” I swear if people heard what my friends and I talked about, they would
think we needed to be locked up.
“Pinky swear.”
She rolled her eyes, and said, “Just go.” Then
she blew me a kiss.
“Yeah, just don’t be mad,” I replied. Her
attention was already on the hot-looking guy on the dance floor, who was making
his way toward her. She flashed him a cocky smile and licked her red,
lipstick-covered lips.
Looked like she had found her prey for the
night.
I made my way through sweaty bodies, people who
were kissing, and several drunks who wanted to play grab ass, but were quickly
shut down by the security guys who removed them.
Near the exit, the wall was made of several
small mirrors, which created some kind of weird art composition. It was hard
not to notice myself in the reflection, not that there was much to look at.
There wasn't a lot to admire about me. I was
skinny, but my firm ass was often noticed. My dull brown eyes were framed by
black hair cut in a bob. I wore biker-chick clothes, because I loved bikes. My
body sported several tattoos. I was plain, just like my name implied. Every
damn magazine in the world made it their mission to point out how funny and out
of place I was among all the beauties in my band. It hurt the first time,
and—who was I kidding?—it still did, but I had to accept it. I wasn't about to
show weakness to anyone, especially the paparazzi.
Finally, outside, I breathed the fresh spring
air and loved the way the breeze calmed and cooled my body.
Las Vegas was beautiful in its own way: all
those lights, casinos, and interesting buildings. Everywhere, people had fun,
and it was a good change from our busy New York life. People smiled, waved, and
took pictures. Some of them were seriously drunk, but still laughed their asses
off. The tourists were dressed in colorful Hawaiian shirts, and the locals in
suits or jeans.
What made the majority of the people in this
city different was the excitement that shone in their eyes and the aura of
adventure around them.
My attention was on my surroundings, so the push
from behind that made me fall forward came out of nowhere. My heart racing, I
was just about to land on the hard concrete when strong, masculine hands caught
me from the front and held me tight, saving me from a painful fall.
“Sorry, hun, didn’t see you there.” I looked
back at a young guy who wasn’t older than mid-twenties as he gave me an
apologetic smile. The bump was an accident, not anything to get angry about. It
could have been a lot worse had it not been for the guy who caught me.
I gave him a reassuring smile and opened my
mouth to speak, but I wasn't given the chance as the chest under my palms
vibrated from the stranger’s raspy voice.
“Maybe next time, you’ll pay better attention to
where you’re going.” His voice was deep, husky, and masculine, and surprisingly,
it sent shivers down my spine all the way to my toes.
The guy who accidently pushed me paled, mumbled
something under his breath, and quickly took off running.
Curious, my eyes moved up, and my breathing
stopped for a second.
He was tall; his wide shoulders blocked my view
behind him, almost as though I was standing in front of a wall. He was rather
bulky, his arms muscled, evident by the way his black shirt stretched over
them. My hands moved of their own accord over his brick-hard chest. Instantly,
my palms tingled; I moved them away quickly and stepped back. Somehow, the move
was like losing my anchor.
What the hell was that? I finally looked at his
face. He had the deepest, most beautiful sapphire eyes I’d ever seen. Those
glorious eyes were surrounded by long lashes and set into his perfect, handsome
face. His shaggy blond hair fell to just below his ears but didn't reach his
shoulders. His kind smile brought attention to his full lips. He gazed down at
me with an expression in his eyes I didn’t understand, because no one had ever
looked at me that way.
I’d never met a man like him, and I didn't
understand my body’s reaction to him. I had visions of his naked skin against
mine, two bodies entwined in bed, making love for hours.
I found it hard to breathe. “Thank you,” I
whispered. I couldn't keep my eyes off him. He gave me a half smile and moved
forward.
I fought the need to step back, because it
seemed like he was a predator and I was his prey. His whole attention was
focused on me, his eyes narrowed.
“Don’t move back from me, sweetheart,” he
growled.
“I don’t know you. Don’t call me that.”
He grabbed my hand and pulled me back on his
chest, resurrecting that electrifying feeling of his presence. His body was as
hot as summer in Texas, and his tanned skin made me want to run my fingers over
it.
“What do you want me to call you then?” he
whispered against my lips, which were a hair’s breadth away.
“I...I don’t know,” I gasped. What was this?
What was I doing? He was a stranger on the street, and I was in his arms
feeling like he was the only one who could give me oxygen.
Before any of this could make sense to me, he
lowered his head and covered my lips with his.
It was like the world stopped.
And I was left alone with him in it.
He slowly nipped my lips then licked and sucked
on the lower one, which made me moan, a perfect opening for him to deepen the
kiss.
This was our first kiss. All I knew about kisses
was that they were gentle and tender.
The few guys I let kiss me were shy, and they
didn’t really make my toes curl, but their kisses were nice. They weren't
passionate, because I simply didn't inspire those feelings in men.
Those kisses seemed dull and uninteresting
compared to the one from the stranger.
His kiss was deep, passionate, hard, and
painful. It seemed as though he wanted to devour my mouth and leave his imprint
on me, like he was marking me for everyone to see and punishing me at the same
time, but for what, I didn’t know. He guided his tongue into my mouth, making
me shiver and shyly answer his kiss, which earned me another growl. Following
his lead allowed me to learn those kind of kisses, and I never wanted them to
stop. My whole body was on fire, and for the first time in my life, I felt heat
between my thighs, and my nipples got hard from the contact with another
person. When my lungs burned from lack of air, he released my lips. We were
both breathing heavily, and our eyes were still locked on each other.
“Beautiful.” The word was like cold water
washing over me, and I was suddenly aware of everything happening around me.
His compliment wasn't the truth, and it broke the spell.
I hated that he had kissed me, but it was hard
not to want more. For one damn minute, I believed in magic again. But the real
world and memories forced me back from my fantasy world to land on my ass.
Hard.
“I need to go.” I had to get out of there, from
him and a situation I didn't understand, which confused me. Everything was
blurry, and I just wanted to run away.
That wasn't right.
That wasn't me.
I’d never reacted to men like I did him; I just
never liked guys, period.
Except Jeremy, but thinking about him made my
heart ache, so I didn’t.
I’d already met the man of my dreams and knew he
loved someone else, so I had to live with that.
I wasn’t looking for love. I was done.
V.F.Mason always
loved reading books and had quite a few fights with her momma over the genre
she liked (romance, duh!) She studied filmmaking and thought that would feed
her desire for stories, but that didn't happen.
Finally, when she
was tired of all those voices in her head, she sat down and wrote a book. It
was a huge decision to make and she thanks her friends and family for
supporting her in it.
When she is not
writing, she can be found with her friends doing all sorts of crazy things or
reading recent romance books that were written by her favorite authors.
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