Spotlight on: Tainted Love (Book 1)

Tainted Love 

Book One

by Ghiselle St. James

The first in a new three book series from Ghiselle St. James:

This is not a fairytale. This is not a story of a woman who is perfect. This is not the story of a perfect couple that sails off into the sunset. This is gritty. This is frustrating. This is heartbreaking. This is my story, hard as it may be to tell.

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                                Synopsis:

My name is Sullivan Beal – at least, that’s what I tell people – and I live life by my own rules. Most of my adult life has been spent hiding from my past. That is, until I meet him face-to-face.

Ben Hayes is the demanding C.O.O. who is hell-bent on having me for himself. But, I’m wrong for him. I know it, the universe knows it.

If he ever found out who I really am, how utterly tainted I am, he wouldn’t waste his time wanting me.
There are things in my past that would destroy everyone in my wake.

But Ben is relentless, trying to break down the walls around my heart that a messy past has caused me to construct. It’s a pity he doesn’t know…I am too tainted for love.


“Love isn’t for me, and my kind of love is too tainted, too blemished to share with anyone.” 

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EXCERPT:

Ben draws closer to me. “Well, when you said you wished you could be anywhere as long as it was with me, I had no choice but to grant that wish.” He leans in and kisses me softly, charging my body with the sexual awareness he exudes.

I pull him on top of me and wrap my legs around him. He chuckles then leans up, staring at me. I think I see something pass in his eyes – something warm, adoring and intense that causes my heart to constrict. The thought is fleeting as he takes my breath away with a deep, hungered kiss.

Ben presses his forehead against mine and breathes, “I can’t get you out of my head.”

“I can’t either,” I concur.

“What do we do?”

“I don’t know. Bask?” I guess, reeling with the fact that he has been feeling this way right along with me.

He trails light pecks from my forehead to my nose then moves his face to my hair where he inhales deeply. He’s lying on top of me, cradling my breasts and I run my fingers through his hair, enjoying his contented sighs. We lie comfortably like this for minutes until his intercom buzzes, disrupting our serenity.

“Mr. Hayes?” his secretary speaks. “I’m reminding you of your 1:30 meeting. It’s in ten minutes, sir.”

Ben groans and unwillingly rises from me. “Just when I was getting comfortable,” he grumbles.

I rue at this unwanted interruption, but relax knowing that I have to get back to my classes as well.

“Simon will take you back to your classes,” he says. “And he’ll pick you up around five to take you back to the apartment.”

“Er,” I mutter, biting my lip.

“What?”

“Well, I have to go to First Steps today. It might be well after seven when I finish. I’ll just take the bus home since it’s not that far away,” I suggest.

“Are you sure?” Ben cups my face staring deeply at me.

“Yeah I’m sure.”

“Okay.” He kisses me. “I’ll come by afterwards then. I’ll just go to the gym and work off some of my sexual tension.”

“Sexual tension? Are you horny, Ben?” I ask, amused.

“When am I not horny around you, Sullivan?” he says, adjusting himself. “Consider yourself lucky that I’ve got a meeting.”

“Sounds like you had something diabolical planned, Mr. Hayes,” I comment, taking up my book bag and heading for the door.

He places his hands on the door on either side of me, effectively trapping me. He grinds against my ass, allowing me to feel the hard bulge in his pants.

“I was planning on fucking you until you were sore. It would be a constant reminder of where I’ve been,” Ben breathes.

His voice churns desire deep in my belly. I grind against him shamelessly and am turned on by the helpless sounds that escape him. I want him so much that it hurts. My center throbs with unsatisfied longing and I don’t know if I can go the rest of the day without that much needed release.

“Can’t we do it real quick?” I beg, my movements becoming more distinct…insistent.

He growls, licking my earlobe. “I wish, but I don’t think I would be able to concentrate afterward. I don’t even think I’ll be able to concentrate now.”

“At least touch it,” I bargain, needing to feel him anyway I can.

“If I touch you, my sweet girl…” he begins. “Then I’ll fuck you,” he growls, sinking his teeth into my shoulder.

A helpless cry escapes me and my body goes limp with want. I turn into him, dropping my book bag and I start kissing him madly. I am going to have to take it.

I quickly strip my blouse over my head, revealing engorged, needy breasts. Ben hisses and bends to kiss them. My nipples stand in awareness of him and he nips at one with his teeth. Pleasure spikes through me making me want him even more.

Ben pulls away from me in a fit, cursing and shoving his hand through his glorious hair; an action so sexy that it makes me want to run my hands through it while he rams his thick cock inside me.

“No,” he seethes, grabbing onto the edges of his desk.

I step toward him stubbornly but am halted when he strikes his hand up.

“Don’t,” he warns. “I have a meeting and you have to get back to your classes.”

“I’m not leaving until I get fucked, Ben,” I fuss, folding my arms and staring at him with determination.

“Sullivan,” he admonishes through clenched teeth.

I grab my shirt and drag it on frustratingly. Taking up my book bag, I snap at him, “Don’t bother coming by later.”

I barge out of his office only to hear him calling after me. Smiling at his secretary, I head for the elevator but decide against it. I take the stairs instead.

My cell phone vibrates in my bag and I ignore it. I am wound so tight, my pussy still throbs and my nipples still feel sensitive, desirous of touch. Still in heat, I needed the distraction of walking down the winding flights of stairs to cool me off.

“Sullivan!” Ben shouts.

I look up to see him a few floors up. Why did he have to follow me? I start pacing down the steps and he follows after me.

“Goddammit, Sully!” Ben growls as he runs and jumps down the steps to try to catch up to me.

“Just leave me alone!” I scream, descending the flights even faster. Why does this feel exciting?

“Fuck that!” he snaps. “Stop…running!”

I duck through a door, trying to mask the smile on my face, and I find myself in an architecture firm. Running down the hall toward a bank of elevators, I bump into a security guard who holds me tightly.

“Do you have her?” Ben’s voice clips through the guard’s walkie-talkie. Shit!

“Yes, sir,” the man answers.

No longer smiling, I wriggle in the man’s hands trying to get away, but his grip is too strong; guaranteed to bruise. I’m about to scream when my voice disappears, hiding behind my vocal chords, at the sudden appearance of Ben. I’m…in trouble.

Tainted Love Teasers:

A Little About the Author:

I was trying to come up with something cool & philosophical to tell y'all about me....like that I'm a wood nymph or some shit, but...I'm not.

I'm a Seminary school graduate and a Christian who writes smut and cusses like a sailor in her mind. :)

Damn, I sound eloquent! Lol!

I love sex, so I write about it. I write about characters who are real...nothing fantastic. My characters are assholes, bitches, frustrating and, for the most part, lovable. I deposit a piece of my heart into everything I write, to the point people say I write like I talk. I dunno if that's a good or bad thing since sometimes I talk alotta shit.

I'm a silly girl, I love to see smiles on people's faces...after they rub one out to something I write of course. Naa, just joking........I am, I am. I do love to make people smile though!

My debut novel is a romantic comedy and I plan to write more of those; however, I don't intend to stick to one genre. Already in the works are more erotic romances and a biker series.

I also write melancholic poetry, but I'll save you the razor to your wrist by not sharing those. I LOVE music, probably about as much as I love reading or writing, and I am a hell of a singer. Wait, did I not tell you I'm awesome? Lol!!!

I pray that you will enjoy the little pieces of my heart called novels and that you will take journeys with me through the lives of these different characters I create.

There are many facets to me, so if ya really wanna know, hit a chick up. I'm approachable :)

And you wanna know the most amazing part of who I am????

I AM JAMAICAN, BORN & BRED!!!!!! Chat 'bout DAT!!! ^_^

Also available from Ghiselle ST. James

South Row: A Comedic Romance

Synopsis:

Southerlynn Row crept into my bed one night and I don't know how it happened, but one minute I was telling her to leave and the next...well, the next I was her first and then she disappeared from my life like a specter in the night and I never saw her again.

For ten years I wondered where she was and for ten years I've been haunted by her memory. I am locked into a union I do not want to be in, with a woman that I do not love, because even after ten years this redhead still haunts my dreams and my fantasies. Just when I think that I've buried that part of my life, the past comes back with a vengeance.

A night out with the boys at a strip club was what I needed after a long and grueling case that I ended up winning. I wasn't prepared for who I'd see headlining the stage that night, though. And once I saw her, my heart - and other...um, organs - started pulsating again.

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Ten years ago, I seduced the man I loved and walked out of his life. Ten years later, and I plan on doing it again. If only I can stop embarrassing myself in front of him: like face-planting on the floor during a sexy dance as I try to lure him back into my life...and my lacy boy shorts.

I've had a messed up past, but Collin Danes made it all worth it to experience day by day. I spent ten years of my life without him. I refuse to do it again.

I'm a grown woman now. And if I'm going to get what I want, I'm going to need a plan. When something is meant to be, nothing or no one - no matter how rich and pretty they are - can stand in the way.

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